God is always there!
I'm headed to Arizona tonight or within a couple nights anyhow...and I know its due to my love and trust in God, even when things seem desperat
I was working on getting to Az per a job that offered a place to stay. When I could not find the means to get there for this job part of me started to worry that i would lose this opportunity. But I knew it was not wise to doubt God, after all he prepared this all right before me. So I knew in my heart now was not the time to start doubting! I thought I may have to go to a shelter to stay awhile here nearby me, but I kept faith. Then I contacted an old friend of mine who said I was always welcome in her home. That took of some fears and pressures. I thanked God, cause he knew I was very frightened of having to possibly go to stay in a shelter. Keeping faith, I continued to make calls to find help to get to Az and this promising job. Nothing was coming. I told my fiance in Az, that we must keep our faith and with me having to move out of my parents that God was closing one door and another shall open. Then I found out I could get a plane ticket much cheaper then a bus ticket, through another contact I made. At the end of that day my mother asked how my searches went and I told her about the deals with the southwest airlines. Then I proceeded to ask if I could stay here until the time of the flight because in order to get it cheap I couldnt leave til the middle of August. My dad immediately said "NOPE". I was very upset. I didnt show it downstairs but came to my room and cried. I told my fiance later what happened and I was still pretty hurt by it. I told my fiance that God does close doors and for a reason. ( I know we tend to hold on to what we have out of fear of moving forward) I told my fiance I had to find away to forgive my dad for making me feel so abandoned and that this was God just saying NO now is the time to move forward in faith, what\ are you going to do with this?) So I told my fiance I had to find a place to stay if I didnt come up with the means to get to Arizona and to this job. That is when I called the old friend. Of course she would accept me with open arms, we were like family. I told the fiance after this acceptance from the friend that I was not going to lose faith and that where ever God leads me is where I will go. If that means to Arizona or to Friends it didnt matter I would go where he would have me go. ~~~~~~~~~~The very next day (Thursday the 30th) my mom comes home from work and calls me downstairs. She told me to make sure I got my stuff ready to go and that she would out of her check be paying for my trip to AZ and to make sure I contacted the Lady about the job. I contacted the lady and left a message. I was shocked at this news from my mom and had went upstairs without a thank you. So after placing call I went back downstairs and thanked her and asked my dad for a moment of his time. I apologized to him because mom said he was hurt that i asked her and not him and explained to him that i was only talking at mom because she asked about my search and did not mean the question to be soley at mom. And of course I immediately thank'd God. And later that evening I got the phone call back and the lady spoke with me and told me she wanted to give me the job. Later I thought to myself. I know sometimes God tests our will and our faith to just hold on to him. This is for our benifit so that we grow. And I knew the incedent with my Dad was a test of how I would handle my current situation. Would I continue to give it up to God not knowing what the next moment or day will bring for me. I am glad that I kept my faith and held on to his love and trusted in him. I know because of that faith he made my parents see it in their hearts to pay what they cannot truly afford at all, my trip to Az.
God Bless Lady O'Dwyer
